I am everything i despise.

There comes the time when you realize that you are really on your own.
When you know you have no home, you have no shelter
You are just a simple miscalculation of two immature married irresponsible individuals.
They made no plans for your life, no plans for your living ,,
They just went doing a mistake after another,
And now, You wake up and realise ,, Yes, you are all alone.
Yes you were not meant to be happy,
Your life is a simple waste of time, a sick game of survival
No, you were not meant to enjoy the life you are living

Fighting the urge to compare, fight those unanswered questions:

WHY ME?
WHATS THE POINT ?
HOW COULD THIS BENEFIT ME?

I used to be a dreamer, with loads of hopes and dreams.
I used to believe that hard work meant success!
That if I am dedicated, it meant I shall reach to my aim
Only now I know, that is utter crap!
You see, Some people are meant to be living, they are meant to have a life
and others are just meant to be collateral damage to serve some big cosmic plan of some sort of almighty being

I am just the result of a mistake after another.
and I was too naive to think I can overcome that so called cosmic plan and fight for what I care to be.

I put my sword down, i shall not fight, I shall not cry
I shall bare that pain of lost dreams and crushed hopes,
I shall go with the flow and just accept defeat.
and just be everything I despise