piece of my mind !

sometimes we take everything around us for granted we wish we were dead - we wish some of the people who got us angry , upset etc etc were dead ( maybe we don't mean it and we just blurt it out in times of desperation or anger).. and we do not realize the effect of any of that !
we do not really appreciate the friends and family even our Exs around us except if we actually lost or about to lose one of them .. we do not comprehend the meaning and the importance of that persons existence in our lives when i think of each person i know and how he or she affected me throughout the years i get so overwhelmed and grateful for every second they spent with me listening to me , hearing my ugly jokes dealing with my goofiness , baring my anger ,supporting me in my darkest times, loving and accepting me for who i am it is true, it is said that we carry a small piece of everyone we know and that all contributes to who we turn out to be. i often think of my my effect on the people around me cos frankly i do not think i ever did have any powerful effect on anyone .. but i think that only makes me want to try to improve and actually be there for the ones i care for , it makes me want to devote myself for something significant that maybe later give me the power to actually affect the lives the ones around me .. isn't that after all the real worth of a person's life ?!

childhood

you know its really interesting remembering ones childhood
actually i remember when i used to stand in front of the mirror and wonder how would i look like when am in the age of 20 ( as if its a big number lolol) ,

i kept wondering about my job, my friends, my style .. going through these pictures and watching myself grow .. its just like a a movie .. with LOADS of flash backs ..

and now i look at myself in front of that same mirror .. wondering how would i look like when am 30 ( i will keep u posted
 then :) , am i that person i always thought myself to be !
its just a life is normally calculated by numbers ,, and the fact is life is only worth the effect u had on the lives around you .. so did i actually affect or touch anyone's life? if i leave will someone actually regret my absence just cos they love me ( am sure my parents will cos they wont have anyone to boss around al day long (kidding ))

abnormal !!

what does the abnormal means??
who has the right to actually accuse anyone of being Normal or Abnormal?

generally people are different .. that includes personal thoughts, personal attitude and outlook towards life.. etc

does anyone have the right to judge u whether you are normal or not .. and what are the standards of being normal ?!
i mean if it is based on society traditions and costumes .. well not all societies agree about normalities and eccentric actions or attitudes!!!!

WHY ?!

sexual harassment is something girls have to deal with daily every where they walk in Egypt (or at least thats where i live now). we have to deal with the ugly comments, men following you around, could sometimes reach to touching you inappropriately..
they just do not understand how that makes girls feel. they do not understand that it is like taking a womans choice of wanting her own space ( of not being touched or talked or commented on). do men actually understand the effect of such treatment affect women ? how sometimes they would feel weak , scared , alone humiliated and disgusted from herself . blaming herself for not having the power to stop this incident from happening !!!
a woman has the right to wear whatever she wants to wear without men judging her, she should be respected in all forms and circumstances.
Why is it that men think they have the right to intrude the privacy of a woman ? do men really think that women are seeking always their attention !! do they believe that they have the right to discharge women from their right to choose what to wear or how to act?
NO ONE judges men for what they wear !? NO ONE judges men for their attitude and disrespect for women.
the ironic part in this whole situation is that IN EGYPT if a girl reports to police men that she has been sexually harassed, SHE is the one they file a case against !!!! as for the Man he is off the hook ( except if it reached to rape) !!!!!!
how are we to feel safe walking in the streets? why are we always forced to be trapped in our homes?
its a question i wish i can ask these guys? why are you doing this?

My dreams

well its been a while that i have been thinking about wanting to join the UN through the humans rights and women rights, animal rights etc etc
actually the most activity that i wanted to participate in most is a campaign against poverty for the people in South Africa and Sudan ..
but recently i got the chance through one of my dear friends to be able to participate through the Human Rights in Egypt .. i think this is a good step because am going to begin to learn, understand and gain more experience.. all this will help later on to get to know the paths and means to actually fully participate and be an effective activist.
maybe i am a dreamer but i do wish i would have this affect, that i would be a part of a solution not to just keep watching things turning worse and blame everyone or i would deal with it as if its none of my concern.!!! i do not want to be that!

just some things that are bugging me

MEN AND WOMEN !!

Well its not quite about news and its definitely not politics its just that am frustrated seeing my rights taken from me..

Seeing ads that actually encourage women TO GO BACK TO KITCHEN AND CLEANING!!

That still women are not taken seriously enough that one of the perfume ads actually said "use this perfume so that when u shake ur head saying NO, he would know that U REALLY MEAN YES" that's absurd!!

We've been fighting for ages that women would get out of their cocoon and go get a job and have a real life.. and now some people somewhere actually want to make men remain superior.

You know if I have one reasonable reason why men should be superior I would try to accept it within a certain limit. but so far no one was able to convince me why men are more precious. What is it that makes men think they are special for?

I mean the only difference existing between men and women is physical and really doesn’t count much because it does not affect the mental capabilities that both gender have.. SO WHAT COULD IT BE !!!

i've been in and out of relationships cos of that cause. am not a lunatic saying that women should actually take men's role .. all am saying is that besides our role we have the right to explore and broaden our horizon.. and as much as a man's career is significant a woman's career should also be as significant and important.